Orenda

Wondering why this song? The answer lies inside. Just give it some time.

Let us get started then…

I was a very ambitious and goal-oriented child. Once I set my mind on something, it was accomplished. At the age of 13, I had my whole life planned. I followed that path. That was all I wanted. I worked hard, and most of my childhood was consumed by books and studies.

But life took a turn once I turned 21 (almost 22). To be honest, the battle and struggle had begun much earlier. Explaining it would lead to a whole other story. As I said, my outlook on life changed once I turned 21.

It started with losing interest in my dreams and the way of life I wanted. It was really depressing. Over the course of a few days, I lost interest in what had defined me since my childhood. It felt like exhaustion and fatigue at first. I thought I was feeling burnt out, and a short break would fix everything.

The break kept shifting its deadline. But the fix never came. Instead, everything came crumbling down. The breaking point came with a movie. As I have explained in my About, the movie is Avatar.

Yes, a movie released in 2008 turned my life around in 2022. It made me think. I slowly began opening my eyes towards the lies around me. It made me think in ways that I had never done before. Earlier, questions used to arise. But I used to shush them with some random reasoning as I had goals to chase and to-dos to strike.

Around the same time I read the book ‘Confessions of an Economic Hit Man’, by John Perkins (10/10 recommended). These are the reasons why I believe in divine plan and divine timing. I was exposed to the corrupted system, one revelation after another. This system is dysfunctional and is running and ruining us.

I began to question the structure, the ways and everything that I was made to believe. I started wondering why life has to be a certain way. I asked myself why we can’t be free in a ‘free world’- a thought that dictates most of my writings. I saw how humans were being divided and how the 1% population was ruling the 99%. To add to this, I sensed a lingering sadness in most of the faces around me. It was as if we were missing something, despite the comforts and leisure. Even the idea of a nation no longer made sense, and it appeared nothing more than a blunder by man.

To add to all this dilemma was my hopelessness. I mean, I had lost my direction and anchor. I no longer had an identity and didn’t know what to do with my life. Because, wherever I turned, there were slogans of development and the responsibilities of a social being. Moreover, I didn’t know what to do with all this new information that was bombarding my brain. Those I shared with couldn’t accept it, saying that those were not practical, as they questioned every established way.

Thus began my B.Ed. (Bachelor of Education) journey. It was a change, all the work and studies kept me busy. Still, it felt off, especially because I did not want to be a part of the current education system. A system which is focused on producing obedient slaves. A system that brainwashes the curious minds and fits them into boxes.

But life happened, and in one and a half years, I got a graduation in education. All the while, new ideas and thoughts were bubbling. I did share some snippets with my friends, but it didn’t feel right.

But looking back, I am grateful for all those years from 2022 to 2025 (precisely starting from 2019). Throughout those years, I became a better person.

That is when I decided to start my blog and Instagram page. I felt that sharing my thoughts would set me free and bring peace. Things happened along the way, and I was not consistent. Moreover, I felt something was missing there, too.

So, I decided to take a break and work on myself. The task that I had started a thousand times but never got through.

Still life felt incomplete. I still didn’t know who I was and what I wanted. I hadn’t found the spark that I lost. I began journaling and meditating, I started talking with myself. I slowly understood what I want and who I am meant to be. (It feels so easy writing it all down, but, Oh God, those years really tested me).

The next million-dollar question was HOW I would accomplish it all. But I trust in myself and know that God has a plan. So, one day at a time, I am tackling the question of HOW.

While on the path of resolving the ‘How’ I learned many things. They really helped me change my outlook on life. But as said, too much of anything is not good. What I meant is that, although I changed as a person, there was more that I was looking for. I wanted to find myself.

As I was wandering around my life, it fell like a lightning bolt. I was feeling uncomfortable because this was not what was meant for me. So I said, “Screw this, I am not here to fit in.” I couldn’t resonate with all the things around me because that is not what I am. And that is not what I am looking for. I didn’t resonate with the people around me because our vision boards were different.

I understood that my world couldn’t be found because it was never created. Then I knew I have to be the one creating it.

The purpose of all this writing was to show that you may feel lost. You may not be able to find a place to settle. That happens because the world you crave is waiting to be created.

If you are looking for a world where you get to be the queen you are without having to be loud, then let’s create that world together. You don’t have to be hustle-minded or productive 24 hours seven days a week.

Let us go back to a meaningful life, a living sourced from nature, a living that is pure and fun, a living that is loud to the soul and reminds you of why you should be grateful for every moment. Let us create a place where we don’t have to be something that we are not. And let us enjoy this human experience. To make things clear, I am not talking about a pain-free world. But a world in which the pain is more meaningful.

With that in mind, I dedicate this section, LOST AND FOUND of my blog, to all my fellow travelers. All those who are feeling lost in this loud world.

That is all my blabbing for now. Please do share your thoughts, outlooks and anything you wish to talk about. Together, let us create a world we dream.

Now you know the relevance of the song.

Keep Shining.

BE THE CHANGE…